Christmas, somethings is missing...

CHRISTMAS....... When talking about christmas, everyone was so excited and started to plan where to celebrate and with who.. Except me............

Let times return to few weeks ago..
Me : Dear, so sorry oh christmas I cant go to Penang to celebrate with you because my dad
sure will not allow me to go Penang without reasons.
Dear : Then I go Taiping find you bah!

And so we were so excited and plan where to go and what to do that day!

Let times adjust to last week..
Dear : My grandma past away, when Christmas is exactly seven days so my mum do not
allow me to go.
Me : Ok, nevermind.

I reply with heart pain but I know I cant show out because his grandma just past away. He very sad... His grandma past away and cannot come and meet me... Feel so sorry cant by his side to console him... So I decided to do a handmade card to him.......

Let times back to now..
So today he received my card.. He said it was cute n nice! This was my 1st time do card for boy, feel so kindergarden the card, hope he will like it! Well today nothing special to me. I just celebrate with my parent. Going to dinner and walking around in our new mall. Somethings is missing.....

I kept telling myself 'You must b patient, only left 29 days to meet him, time passed very fast'..

I was so nervous while waiting for his sms reply.. I sent 'What time you working today?'.. I kept praying that he will not work at night.. Teng teng teng teng! Yeah! He worked at afternoon so we had promised to meet at msn at 8.30pm.. While Im free and waiting for the time, I kept thinking of whether he come to find me at Sat is right or wrong.. After a long thinking, I think I better cal him not to find me at Sat.. This is bcoz from Setiawan to Taiping need around one and a half hour, somemore the road very narrow and small.. When at night he drive back from Taiping to Setiawan sure very dangerous! Haiz... N I also duwan always waste his petrol.. I kept telling myself 'You must b patient, only left 29 days to meet him, time passed very fast'..

Disappointed + Excited

Today a bit disappointed oh bcoz he today worked at night so we cant see each other through webcam.. What to do? Haiz... Ohyea, he said this Saturday he will be coming to Setiawan and mayb wana come and find me at Taiping.. I was like so excited and started to plan if he come, where should I bring him to go and eat.. After I had planned the whole journey, I wrote it out and sent to him.. Now waiting for his reply......

No matter how, the feeling of saw him at webcam and meet his real person is not same.....

Today working as usual..Working with such a 'WEIRD' boss really make me suffer..I kept telling myself 'don worry,somebody is waiting for you after you finish work'.. So I was like concentrate on my work, keep myself busy so that time passed faster.. As normal, after I finished my dinner, I quickly on my msn and chat with him.. But today a bit different oh, I can saw him through webcam!!! I didnt meet him for 3 days n I thought after one month only I can see him.. When I saw him that time, duno y I just kept smiling and call 'dear...dear...dear'.. So miss him! But no matter how, the feeling of saw him at webcam and meet his real person is not same.....

Hoping the day we can meet can arrive faster.......

Working for second day le..Thats mean we didnt meet for 2 days..My mind keeps reflecting the day we had to say goodbye to each other..My tears falling down when I thought of it..Until now I still can feel the warmth of his chest when I lay on him before I left..I felt so so so down and almost to cry!But I know I have to control my tears,I duwan him to be sad too..32 days to go to meet him..Almost everyday Im crying..Hoping the day we can meet can arrive faster.......

Today 1st day working...

第一天做工原本充满期待的我，到了那里只有一句话想说：‘我从来都没有看过这么凶的女人（我的老板）！！！’。一边做工一边想着你，还好没有做错东西。。。

But happiness ended so fast...

These 2 days going out shopping with him again lo!!!
So happy and excited!
But happiness ended so fast...
I had to come back to my hometown,
around one month cant meet him...